So I got a call from Charlotte Russe yesterday and they offered me a job!! Finally after weeks and weeks of no luck I finally have a job. I’m so happy and excited to start working again. It will be a good way to keep my mind off of things that I don’t feel like thinking about. That is until I start dancing again. When that happens my life will finally be where I want it to be.
I think I’ll move out with this new job too. I love my family and no one will ever understand me as much as they do, but I don’t think I can take much longer living in that house. I need space to spread my wings and actually see what it’s like to truly be free. I have to get a car first though. I mean a car of my own, that I don’t have to share because I paid for it.
Along with all this I started working out again. I’m tired of looking at myself in the mirror and absolutely hating what I see. So I go jogging every day, switch off between barre work and pilates, stretch, and even do a little bit of P90X. My body hurts every day in new places, but I like it because I know its pain from hard work. I CAN’T WAIT TO START DANCING AGAIN!! I’m gonna feel the burn every day.
I’m also working at getting over him. I know now that he doesn’t love me, not even as a friend anymore and I think I can deal with that now that I have so many things to keep me busy and my mind distracted from all that noise.
This is the start of a new life for me. :)